It was the kindness that did it,
submerged in hot water
trying to soak the sadness out,
trying to scrub myself sweet.
If I could rewind, squish a pen
in the spokes, squash the
crooked tape back into a semblance
of its original shape and re-record -
let fresh sounds slide across
the cracked polyester - I would.
Instead of desires whispered
by hungry mouths into trembling ears
there would be the warmth
of a crackled loop of silence.
Lori England is an undergraduate student at the Open University, studying for a BA (Hons) in English Literature and Creative Writing. She's a writer and poet from Glasgow, Scotland. Her work has been published in 404 Ink, by Crab Fat Magazine and was shortlisted for the 2015 Bold Types creative writing competition. She is currently juggling studying with bringing up her own tiny girl gang. You can find out more about her work on her blog: here.